surreal reality*

Friday, June 22, 2007 @11:25 PM

my er yi lao lao passed away this afternoon.

rest in peace.

i meet her only once or twice before. that was when i was naive and stupid. dun really rmb her much thou..
still feel sadness when i heard the news. mama's crying. i m emo-ing. and daddy's trying to shut my sister up.. cos she's being irritating and trying to get my rents to buy her a indoor slide. how stupid is that.

it was like 2months ago since she feel sick. its was rather critical at first and she almost passed on. then she got better and went home 1 and half wks later in the pink of health.
but 2wks at home she suffered a relapse and was admitted to ICU again.

at least she ended her sufferings on earth.
hope you are now in somewhere happy.

the following is written for my er yi lao lao(althou u can't read english), for Bay's grand uncle, for my hamster Catus(love you even thou u bit my hand.. ur sth that i can't replace.), for my grandma (i know u passed away very long ago.. i still love you a lot) and for all that had someone that passed on.
copyright to yours truly (yang2 aka. me)

life is a package with a label.
it reads: fragile, handle with care
do not crash, do not fall
do not break the hearts of others who love you.

leave with a smile and no regrets
this is a one way ticket to a better place

don't look back, don't hesitate
beautiful memories with keep you company
just keep walking step by step
leading on to paradise

live with a smile and leave with a smile
your sojourn on earth has come to an end
take flight and fly away
eternal paradise is but one stop away

(don't try to steal this. its mine, not yours.)

on a happier note, lin-kor is getting married tmr! congrats congrats.
i have known u since i was 5/6 yrs old? haha. time flys.. and ur getting attached, bonded eternally to someone.
its quite scary, to me at least, that i'll one day might be deeply attached to someone and give him my heart.. trusting him that he won't take it and break it over and over again. x.x

i might not be able to stay for the entire christy's b'day celebration. need to leave early for lin-kor's wedding. so sorry christy dear. i m still trying to fight w my mom to let me go. she initally dun allow me go.. cos i need to be at the wedding at 2. duno lah..
shall wait till she's over the crying mood.

emo-ness.
one day i'll leave is place and hopefully leave for a better place. but what if i want to stay on? do i get a choice? life is so irritating.. give us a life and then take it away. come on! what are u trying to do? toy with human emotions? it is so confusing to a point that i don't see the humour who-ever-you-are-if-you-even-exist.

-yang

[edit]
here's another song.. ironically i have been listening to this song on repeat for 2wks straight. maybe it was a hint that something is gona happen.

"Camisado" by PANIC! At The Disco.
The I.V. and your hospital bed
This was no accident
This was a therapeutic chain of events

This is the scent of dead skin on a linoleum floor
This is the scent of quarantine wings in a hospital
It's not so pleasant
And it's not so conventional
It sure as hell ain't normal
But we deal, we deal

The anesthetic never set in and I'm wondering where
The apathy and urgency is that I thought I phoned in
It's not so pleasant.
And it's not so conventional
It sure as hell ain't normal
But we deal, we deal

Just sit back, just sit back
Just sit back and relax
Just sit back, just sit back
Just sit back and relapse again

Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
Sit back, relax
Sit back, relapse again
Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
Just sit back, just sit back

You're a regular decorated emergency
You're a regular decorated emergency

This is the scent of dead skin on a linoleum floor
This is the scent of quarantine wings in a hospital
It's not so pleasant.
And it's not so conventional
It sure as hell ain't normal
But we deal, we deal

The anesthetic never set in and I'm wondering where
The apathy and urgency is that I thought I phoned in
It's not so pleasant.
And it's not so conventional
It sure as hell ain't normal
But we deal, we deal

Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
Sit back, relax
Sit back, relapse again
Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
Just sit back, just sit back
Sit back, sit back, relax, relapse
Sit back, sit back, bababada
You can take the kid out of the fight

You're a regular decorated emergency
The bruises and contusions will remind me what you did when you wake
You've earned a place atop the ICU's hall of fame
The camera caught you causing a commotion on the gurney again

Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
Sit back, relax
Sit back, relapse again
Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
Just sit back, just sit back
Sit back, sit back, relax, relapse
Sit back, sit back, bababada
You can take the kid out of the fight

The I.V. and your hospital bed
This was no accident
This was a therapeutic chain of events

-loveliest queens in this parade-